I was so excited to discover this amazing book, “31 Days of Prayer for the Dreamer and the Doer” by Jenn Sprinkle and Kelly Rucker and the gals at The Well Studio. I need this book, right now, at this very moment. (I need the Bible too, I know this) I am a Dreamer, which can be distracting and overwhelming at times. I am a doer, same symptoms as the dreamer part. Life is a little challenging right now. I need some helpful reminders to get me focused and back on track. (Yes, I read my Bible. Yes, that should be enough, don’t judge) This book is just what I need and I believe God guided me toward it, through Instagram. Because I’m sure God would be on Instagram, well He’s everywhere, so yes, He is on Instagram.
I thought I would document my journey on the blog, sharing 3 of my prayers from the week. That way I have a reason to go back and study what I wrote through out the week. It will be like a weekly review and checkup for myself and maybe, just maybe, help someone along the way. I’m basically going to just type out my journal entries for the week. So here goes. Enjoy.
-Holding on to negativity
-Changing my Perspective
One of my distractions from prayer is self-pity. I get so frustrated with my situation and feel too angry to pray. I substitute prayer with food, TV, or daydreaming about how things could have been different if I’d have done this or that. I troll through FB or IG in hopes of finding something, although I don’t know what. I instead create more self-pity and find myself envying others’ success. I get whiney and question myself and you about why I’m not successful. I hold on to the negativity and allow it to change my attitude toward the people around me. I get frustrated with them and mean, really mean. I question my faith even. So dear Lord I pray that you please help me to stop wallowing in self-pity. Help me to seek you instead. Help me to channel my frustration into something positive and in doing so serve you better. Help me to focus on your love for me and the opportunities you have already given me. Help me to be thankful for the doors you have opened for me. Help me to be more gentle with my loved ones even through the trials. Help me to use these trials to strengthen my hope in You. Please restore my spirit so that I can be a better example of your love. Thank you for your blessings today and the motivation to get some cleaning accomplished. Specifically the cat litter box. You know I’m serious about that one.
In Jesus name Amen
1/26/2015 God’s Word
-Searching the Word for Hope
-Thanking God for His Word
-Desire to seek out His Word before going to other sources
“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path
I have sworn, and I will perform it, that I will keep thy righteous judgements”
“May my desire to grow in knowledge of You come from a place of humility and not a heart seeking to puff itself up with pride” page 34
The past two years I have tried to read through your word every day. I started at the beginning and made it to the end. Then started on the New Testament to focus on Your new law. Honestly, as you already know, I struggled the second time and didn’t finish. I was intimidated and at times confused. In today’s world your words are interpreted in so many different ways. It is so easy to get confused or overwhelmed. At least it is for me. So I ask that you give me a clear understanding of Your word. Help me to see it’s true meaning and not be influenced by false interpretations. Help me to have faith in the truth. I pray that I can understand your word so that I can help others know your love. So that when I’m feeling overwhelmed with life I can recall your word and find peace. Help me to be less distracted and more focused on You. Thank you for giving me the desire to seek you today and I pray for endurance in this journey to seek you long after this study. If I fail, which is highly likely, help me to seek you again.
In Jesus name Amen
“We can’t begin to fathom the work of Your hands. That’s the way you intended it. We can’t theorize one strategize because you dwell in unexpectancy.” page 44
“Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, “Go, throw yourself into the sea,” and it will be done.”
You know my heart and my struggles with faith. I want more than anything to have true faith in You and your word. Why is it such a struggle? You are constantly showing me that you will take care of me and my family, but I’m still consumed with worry and doubt.
I get so confused as to what your plans are for me. Am I making the right choices, was that a missed opportunity. When do I give up on this project or adventure. Is this what I’m really suppose to do Lord. How are we going to pay this bill? Is the hustle ever going to end? Ahhhh!!!
I think all these things when I am weak Lord. But You tell me that you take care of the sparrows so that You will of course take care of me! And then I realize I know this. I know you will take care of me. So maybe I’m asking the wrong thing. (Lightbulb moment)
Dear Lord what I think I really need is peace during the wait. As in waiting for that moment when I know you are going to swoop in like Batman and save the day. Only you are way better than Batman and Your timing is perfect. Although, I must admit that I don’t fully grasp Your timing and I guess I don’t really need too. Help me remember that your eventually is different than mine. Dear Lord I believe in you! Peace in the waiting, yes THAT’S what I need help with.
Please Lord forgive me for being anxious and impatient. Thank you for your timing and I pray that as I reflect on that timing I can see how perfect your timing really was. Those bills will get paid, I will be okay. You always provide. Thank you for loving my mess.
In Jesus name Amen